Time keeps moving on and on and on, soon we'll all be gone...

College means you're changing, college means adapting to new territory and creating new identities. College means seperation anxiety and a lot of sacrifice. College means hard work. University is the same. But what a lot of people forget is....it's also a new territory to EXPLORE, to conquer, to adventure in and have fun. Things need to be balanced in life. As an aspiring accountant, I can see the importance of this in more than one way. When you have a business, you have to balance your books. Your debits and credits. It's important that it all stays balances. So does work and play. All work no play, like all debts and no profits, results in a lot of stress, hairpulling and pent up emotions. Eventually all leading to negative effects, possibly even going crazy. All party, no work...like all cash no debts...is complete bull..it also puts you into trouble. Youre happy while it lasts but in the end, you're still fucked. Keep it balanced. I don't wanna lose my friends to hard work and anxiety vs no hang-out time...Yes, it's selfish for one to ask someone else to drop all work to play....work is important. But, to get away from it...helps relieve a lot. Hell, you can even work WITH someone and have a blast if you really want to. I dont wanna lose you to stress, money and university....:( come out and play.

Reckless Abandon - Blink-182

On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on

I learned a lot today,
not sure if I'll get laid,
not sure if I'll fail or pass,
kissed every girl in class

Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call,
memory that's full of fun,
fucked up, when it's all done

On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large

Sip a drink of the alcohol
end up kneeling in bathroom stalls
Eyes are red and my movements slow
too high, got vertigo
He took a shit in the bathroom tub,
and fed the dog the brownie drugs
Tried hard to not get caught,
he fucked a chick in a parking lot

On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large

Break a window and bust a wall,
making fun of your friends mom
Turn the music up way too loud,
Charge the pizza to the house
Everybody would waste it all,
to have a summer that they could call
Memory that's full of fun,
fucked up when it's all done

On and on, reckless abandon
Something's wrong, this is gonna shock them
Nothing to hold on to
We'll use this song to lead you on
And break the truth with more bad news
we left a scar, size extra large

I sort of had a good summer this year...but honestly, working blows. I'd rather just do my thing all summer long. Three thumbs up for laziness and one cheer for the person who realizes they only have two thumbs.

Should I Stay Or Should I GO

You know, it's hard being the quiet kid when you're really just waiting to explode into hyper mode and say stupid shit when people think you're abnormally mature and shy. The worst part is, it makes you wonder what you really are. For instance, I wish I could just act the way I am with my friends at work or at school or anywhere for that matter but I'm just not like that, I always end up being very quiet and solitary. A lot of people view me as very serious or snobby, possibly only shy but I doubt that after months they still think that's all it is, though..it pretty much is. I'd love to just go around joking with everyone but the thing is, most people don't understand my humor.

And see that's what happens. No one in the world will ever know a person unless they're pretty good friends. I'm sure everyone's felt as though no one understood them at LEAST once in their life and for some it's just an every day thing. But when it comes to friends, you know they'll get you. It feels almost surreal, it's like you share a mind sometimes. For instance, you'll have friends who can know what you're talking about when even YOU don't know what you're talking about. Sometimes, they finish your sentences. You share everything with them. Past memories and stupid jokes or situations that no one else finds funny. Nerdy interests like....Sailor Moon, anime and video games. Maybe even simply music, you'll find a way to connect with someone through either listening to the same genre of music or playing music with them...even just talking about it. Comparing good and bad days. You can't really do that with a random person I mean ya could but with a friend you can rant and rave and they'll know exactly what you mean if you tell them your step fag's an idiot(see, if you're reading this and don't know me, you don't know what I mean by step fag or maybe ya do but it's improbable).

I can tell you exactly who some of my friends are and what it is that makes us kinda unite...or what I think...

My Mireille, I think we get along because I'm a dork and deep down inside her social, popular core, she's a pretty big dork too. Difference is, I'm kind of a goof and she's just cute :P.

Julie, we get along through music and we both share the outer illusion of being shy and quiet at all times...let me tell you, that girl can talk and laugh and...act innocent. Is all I'm saying. I don't think anyone can see through my shit like she can either ahaha...damn..

J-D, we have been best friends since grade 4. I feel super comfortable with all of my friends but honestly, I don't even feel any sort of pressure of what to talk about or what not to talk about with her it's just weird we just click. I can act stupid and she can pretend she's not just as weird. But when it comes down to it, we both hate mainly the same things, we both bitch the same way, we both laugh at stupid things....we're like really messed up twins. I find.

Chriss...well she's my girlfriend. I think we bond because we both try to seem kind of tough but we're really not...at all....I mean, I'm pretty tough on the outside don't get me wrong I'M A TANK....Ok maybe not so much....*Backs down*...

Dianne : I have no clue what it is, honestly, but I know Julie could tell me if I asked nicely......or not. Who knows. I just love Dianne. Haha.

So that's what I think about why some of my friends are my friends. But what I'm really interested in is what YOU think about your friends and why you understand each other so well. Or maybe it's not even like that, maybe your friends are the ones who DON'T get you...So post a comment and let me know what you think.

: D

Let's Make This Last Forever

Update on the Blink-182 concert, :

IT WAS AMAZING!

The trip to Montreal in the car was fun. J-D bought a 40 pack of timbits. We stopped at at least 10 Tim Hortons'. We had a bit of a hard time finding the subway when we finally got to Montreal but...we got there...couldn't find a washroom for the life of us. It took us about half an hour to decide to go look harder for one and another little while to get there...but maybe that's just because there's three different escalators you have to take before getting above ground...Anyhow. We finally found it, saw the most gigantic male and female door signs. J-D INSISTED on taking a picture...haha. Then we went and waited for our friend to meet us there...that took a while. And when she finally got there, we bolted for the Bell Centre. But guess what? We were about two hours early getting there because there is no line when you have seats. We waited from about 4 o'clock until 6:30pm to go in. In the meanwhile, we found a merch tent which we thought would be the only one, and bought a few t-shirts. There wasn't a ton of selection but we got what we wanted. Then finally, inside, there was SO MUCH MORE. And when we found our seats, we busted out and went to get more stuff. All-in-all, 145$ spent with 15$ to spare (it's all I brought cash-wise, they don't take debit at a merch tent haha). After buying all my stuff, we went back to our seats. J-D was still in there with our tickets. Security didn't seem to want to let us through but they did. Not very good security, honestly. Anyhow. Cutting the shit and getting to the concert...

It started off with a smaller band named Planet Smashers. They weren't terrible but I wasn't impressed or anything. Honestly, they sort of gave me a headache but maybe that's just me. It was like a bad version of NOFX, but everyone knows you can't be anything like NOFX without Fat Mike. But it wasn't a big deal, they didn't have a very long set. Maybe barely an hour...Then, the anticipation rose as Fall Out Boy's set was next and they happen to be J-D's favorite band. Well, they were pretty good. They opened with Sugar, We're Going Down, which was a good choice because it's a well-known, slightly older song. It was a good hit and everyone loved it. Then they played a few more older songs, like before From Under The Cork Tree, so that made me pretty happy. They played some new stuff too which isn't bad but I'm not a big fan of their new album. They also played a cover of Don't Stop Believin' by Journey which I thought was pretty rad but maybe I just like old music.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST...

My hands were getting shaky, my head a bit sweaty, my heart was beating a thousand miles an hour for what was about to come...and then finally, curtains dropped and there they were. The Mark, Tom and Travis show, right in front of my eyes...well actually, a little off to the side based on where we were..but you know what I mean. It was AMAZING. They played a wide variety of their songs, their set almost lasted two hours....if not more. I'm not sure. It was long but it sure wasn't boring. I almost fell over some girls seat hopping and banging my head and trying to restrain myself from jumping down to try to reach the small mosh pit the people on the floor had been trying to create all night. I was very pleased, I never wanted it to end. When they played Stay Together For The Kids and said it was about them, I nearly cried. I had such a good night and such a good trip. Blink-182, welcome back. : D Hopefully, they'll be putting out a new album sometime after their tour. And I'm going to pre-order it the second I can. Man oh Man.

And my own two arms will carry you tonight, tonight...

Today is the 1 year anniversary of my friend Samantha Berard's death...She passed away last summer in a drinking and driving accident. The poor girl,only 17, never made it home. Tonight, they're having a memorial walk from the accident site to her home. It's been a pretty rough day but I've managed without letting anyone see how upset I truly am. It's not just the fact that a friend of mine died, it's the whole driving under the influence thing...I mean just recently, three kids died cuz they were walking near the road and a drunk driver hit them. A taxi driver told me and my gf that some lady got crushed or something along the lines of that by some sort of heavy machinery because some idiot construction worker was not only drinking and driving, he was on the job, in a large bulldozer, drunk. The construction workers on the job with him? All drunk. Isn't that unreal? How irresponsible can people be...It makes me sick. People view organizations like M.A.D.D. or S.A.D.D. or anything like that as ridiculous and overdramatic. They think it's a joke. "Who's dumb enough to drink and drive" - obviously, a lot of people. "What's the big deal, nothing's ever happened to me, if you only drink a little bit, who cares. " I'm sure the friends and families of people who've gone through losing someone because something as stupid as driving under the influence care quite a bit. It doesn't matter if it's "just a bit". Good for you if nothing's ever happened yet. It doesn't make it more responsible, it doesn't justify the action as right. It drives me crazy that people don't see that. Am I a crazy Teen Against Drunk Driving? No. I have looked into such organizations so that I could find comfort in other people who understood what I was going through when Sam passed...but...I've never been part of any organizations. Am I just hypersensitive because I've been affected by it? Partially, but it's not like I thought it was a good idea to begin with, for someone to get into a car drunk. Any views on this subject? Let me know what you think about this. I'd like to hear it. Or even any relating subjects. Wanna vent? Go ahead. Always here to hear it.

R.I.P. Sam

Teacher leave those kids alone...

So, music is probably the most powerful thing in the universe. It contains so much energy, so much emotion and so much fucking radness, it's unbelievable. What's even more powerful is the energy that comes from a concert. The music booming in your ears, the people's excitement flowing high all around, the anticipation of your favorite band playing right in front of you, you stand, your legs going numb because even the ground is trembling in unison with the bass pounding and the guitar's melody carrying out everywhere. Plus the singer's always pumping you up, singing, screaming, shouting, urging you to do the same.

There's always that one concert that you can't ever get out of your head. My two most memorable so far being Billy Talent and Hedley. Billy Talent was a while back but I can still remember my legs feeling like they were gonna fall off after the concert was over for having spent hours on end standing and screaming and pounding my fist in the air. And with Hedley, it was just...I don't really know how to explain it, I've never felt so free in my life as when I went to the Hedley concert, as korny as that may sound. BUT. In a little over a week, the punk/pop melody of a band that's been around for over a decade (if you take away the hiatus) will be ringing in my ears. My ultimate favorite band for many years now, Blink-182, in Montreal. Oh yeah. And then at the end of the month, coming to Sudbury Summerfest 2009! Our Lady Peace!. August is always such a good month. So many concerts, so many bands, so much positive energy everywhere. I love it. For year, I've been going to these music festivals every summer. Since I was little, I used to go to the North BayHeritage Festival where I've seen the likes of Amanda Marshall, Treble Charger, David Usher, Honeymoon Suite, etc...and just last year they changed it to North Rocks The Bay where we saw Hedley and a bunch of local bands. Then I started going to the Sudbury Summerfest. Just last year, I saw Illscarlett, State of Shock, Finger Eleven ( watch the video ), Low Level Flight and unfortunately, Kardinal Offishall ( not a big fan of rap but it was that or country and my sister enjoyed it ). It's just so pleasant.

If anybody ever reads this, what are some of the bands you've seen live before that you enjoyed, whether they be famous or just locally known and how was the experience, what do you remember most about it? If you've never been to a concert, who would you like to go see and why?

I'll keep you posted as to how well the concerts go. I'll probably also post pictures of them as well as of the merch I get :).

Also, don't forget to watch the vid. It's Finger Eleven doing some Pink Floyd (Another Brick In The Wall) and getting back into Paralyzer before ending the concert. Enjoy :P.

Ground control to major tom...

Did you ever notice that some of the most amazing people have always been in some way odd?

Freddie Mercury and David Bowie. Think about it. Flamboyantly gay, but who can ever forget old Ziggy Stardust and his Space Oddity or get a Queen song out of their head in less than a week? Tim Burton and his dark creations, always hits.

But I'm not just talking celebrities here, think about your family...think about your friends...my best friends are probably the weirdest people I know but they're amazing. I say embrace being an oddball. Who wants to be normal anyway? I don't. Scares me to death to be honest. Why? Being normal, being...socially acceptable to the core...is worrisome. Society worries me.

So pull out your dorky habits, your weird clothes, unorthodox views and random-ass interests and flaunt 'em cuz no matter how messed up you may think or other people may think you are, there's probably something really special about you and you can only let it shine by being you. Wow that was corny. But you know I'm right.