Should I Stay Or Should I GO

You know, it's hard being the quiet kid when you're really just waiting to explode into hyper mode and say stupid shit when people think you're abnormally mature and shy. The worst part is, it makes you wonder what you really are. For instance, I wish I could just act the way I am with my friends at work or at school or anywhere for that matter but I'm just not like that, I always end up being very quiet and solitary. A lot of people view me as very serious or snobby, possibly only shy but I doubt that after months they still think that's all it is, though..it pretty much is. I'd love to just go around joking with everyone but the thing is, most people don't understand my humor.

And see that's what happens. No one in the world will ever know a person unless they're pretty good friends. I'm sure everyone's felt as though no one understood them at LEAST once in their life and for some it's just an every day thing. But when it comes to friends, you know they'll get you. It feels almost surreal, it's like you share a mind sometimes. For instance, you'll have friends who can know what you're talking about when even YOU don't know what you're talking about. Sometimes, they finish your sentences. You share everything with them. Past memories and stupid jokes or situations that no one else finds funny. Nerdy interests like....Sailor Moon, anime and video games. Maybe even simply music, you'll find a way to connect with someone through either listening to the same genre of music or playing music with them...even just talking about it. Comparing good and bad days. You can't really do that with a random person I mean ya could but with a friend you can rant and rave and they'll know exactly what you mean if you tell them your step fag's an idiot(see, if you're reading this and don't know me, you don't know what I mean by step fag or maybe ya do but it's improbable).

I can tell you exactly who some of my friends are and what it is that makes us kinda unite...or what I think...

My Mireille, I think we get along because I'm a dork and deep down inside her social, popular core, she's a pretty big dork too. Difference is, I'm kind of a goof and she's just cute :P.

Julie, we get along through music and we both share the outer illusion of being shy and quiet at all times...let me tell you, that girl can talk and laugh and...act innocent. Is all I'm saying. I don't think anyone can see through my shit like she can either ahaha...damn..

J-D, we have been best friends since grade 4. I feel super comfortable with all of my friends but honestly, I don't even feel any sort of pressure of what to talk about or what not to talk about with her it's just weird we just click. I can act stupid and she can pretend she's not just as weird. But when it comes down to it, we both hate mainly the same things, we both bitch the same way, we both laugh at stupid things....we're like really messed up twins. I find.

Chriss...well she's my girlfriend. I think we bond because we both try to seem kind of tough but we're really not...at all....I mean, I'm pretty tough on the outside don't get me wrong I'M A TANK....Ok maybe not so much....*Backs down*...

Dianne : I have no clue what it is, honestly, but I know Julie could tell me if I asked nicely......or not. Who knows. I just love Dianne. Haha.

So that's what I think about why some of my friends are my friends. But what I'm really interested in is what YOU think about your friends and why you understand each other so well. Or maybe it's not even like that, maybe your friends are the ones who DON'T get you...So post a comment and let me know what you think.

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